personal touches

Losing someone who you love at such a young age is so difficult in the sense that it’s hard to function everything all within the same time that you’ve got to be growing up and nurturing yourself. Earlier this morning, I was told that my uncle had sadly passed away. I lost my dad to a long term illness at the age of fourteen. Since then, everything has been established to me in a completely different perspective and I’ve learnt two big things from that: to always have gratitude for everyone and everything that you have and that life is too short to be wasting your time. 

It will be three years by the end of this week, in fact, since I lost the person who I adored to call my best friend. The news of loosing another family member has broken me down in another way which is indescribable (especially with the current status that this week has in stall for me). Even until now do I feel crushed and lost that he’s not here, in physical form. 

I’ve never really been able to open up properly to the people around me about the way how I’ve been feeling, whether that be in general or within the current moment. At the same time, if I have somewhat said something about the way how I feel (which is so rare) I take that opportunity to express how truly grateful I am for that individual. 

To be quite honest, I know that there are people out there who are more likely going through something worse or have been through worse - I guess I could have been through worse too. This week in general hasn’t been the most pleasant one. That’s my hardship, which will eventually turn into normality. 

I guess, in a way, I’m not writing this one today for the sake of gaining pity from you;I simply want people to be more open with the way how they feel - it’s never that simple to release everything that’s been bottled up for so long.

It is hard. But it is what it is. It is life. 

At this stage, all I can do is breathe, pray and think - and most importantly be grateful for everyone and everything that I have as we speak.

x

2|5|2019