defeated by the future

I’m at this point where I’m consistently remembering the types of events and situations I will get myself into within the next few chapters, if you call it, of my life. We can all agree that not everything will go the way as planned, but it will soon work out - I know, very cliche. But at the same time, the positivity that some of us lack is beginning to deprive us of what we deem to have as the ‘perfect life’. I tend to question that sometimes (internally obviously).

To be truly honest, it is stressing me out big time, and I know I’m not the only one. Every single ounce of expectation is considered to be so high, even the whole idea is weighing everything down - making it even harder to make my way back up again. 

In some way, however, I feel that not everything has to be completely taken into the biggest seriousness in terms of being completely hard on yourself and taking on every prick of pain. I do agree that without the hardships and difficult manifestations, we wouldn’t be able to establish the strong people that we are today. Sometimes the balance is inexplicable. But it is life as we see and know it. 

Each individual is their own for a reason. All the different types of difficulties to be faced is another reason to be grateful for the time we’ve all been given to build ourselves to make our legacy shine. 

x

13|4|2019